Hustler

I was 11th Grade When I  preferred to spend time for someone kind of wasting time to think about her.  This was totally unique feeling I haven't felt before. I tried to think about her lot. I felt she were roaming inside me. She is having a fair complexion but not having fair heart I didn't know that time. Love or infatuation ??  I wasn't sure it's love or infatuation. At the time I couldn't get out of the sphere. I felt something terrible. I can't even focus on my studies. It was very badly distracted me .  When I was doing my 12th grade while I'm doing this shit . I saw the effects of this after my result. The moment I realized I was an ASSHOLE.

 I wasn't good at studies at the time. When I was 6th Std I got 45% . I trapped a incident . I did something terrible to one of my friend. So it made the situation so complicated . My family also affected for this incident. I got punished from teacher & my father for this incident.  My father told "Do one thing that will make me proud".  I tried to find which I'm good at. I started studying with faith & love.  I made a schedule spend almost 4hrs in normal school days & 8hrs in Holiday for study .  I got 20th rank in my first exam & 13th in 2nd & 16th in 3rd & 4th in 4th & 5th in 5th exam eventually Got 1st rank 6th exam.  " Hard work with consistent will make you successful "

             Introduction  When a family struggling to earn money & run a family mother's ready to deliver second babe. He is the one who writing this. People were saying that I was born to change the family's fate. Like they said my parents found a good income source to run our family.  I grew up & our family also . Things changed in short span. I thought myself I had all kind of skills. I believed in things.  I was good at studies. I believe in myself I can do anything in studies. I got good grades as well. Things went really well. I did masturbate at the age 11. I became addicted in this habit. Before I reach 10th Std I didn't have any distraction. After this I got affair with a girl. Things gotta changed the way it should be. I started loving her like everyone else does.